A Shield for the Void
Let ALL Her Pieces Live
After the Clouds Soaked up Your Tears
Not Staring at the Past
Be the Shelter, Be the Storm
Designed to Dance Outside the Lines
And you Said Yesterday was the Past
The Petals were Poisoned with Leashes
My Visions Hang on My Bones
A Long Time Ago Tonight
These eleven photographs are all long-exposure self-portraits. I consider myself to be primarily a self-portrait artist currently, though I began my journey into photography shooting mostly documentary, lifestyle and portraiture. The shift in genre happened very organically. At first I was just testing out different lighting environments and taking my own photograph for bio pictures. Over time, my self-portrait taking increased and became a platform through which I could explore my inner landscape. I found the process to be very cathartic, healing, and helpful in so many ways. It seemed as though I had finally found the voice I had been struggling to find my whole life.
This particular series of self-portraits were created using long expsoure/slow shutter technique. When I set aside time to create my self-portraits, I almost always experiment with long-exposure for at least a handful of frames. I use the term experiment, because using this technique seems to always surprise me at least a little–and sometimes outright astounds me–with the results. On a whole though, I find self-portraiture in general seems to hold more uncertainty and surprises for me than when I shoot other genres–to be both making the frame and in the frame simultaneously is a practice in patience and in trusting the flow of the process and the results that develop.
I am drawn to long exposure for more than just the unpredictable results. I find it reveals a unique opportunity to study the relationship between subject and space. By slowing down the shutter, the subject has the ability to flow and float through their environment in a way that begs the question whether the person is appearing or disappearing. Conveying motion by blurring the subject can give an unsettling, stirring, even ghostly mood to the photograph. Oftentimes, the subject isn’t even recognizable–there is a loss of identity within the movement.