These photographs are all long-exposure self-portraits. I consider myself to be primarily a self-portrait artist currently, though I began my journey into photography shooting mostly documentary, lifestyle and portraiture. The shift in genre happened very organically. At first I was just testing out different lighting environments and taking my own photograph for bio pictures. Over time, my self-portrait taking increased and became a platform through which I could explore my inner landscape. I found the process to be very cathartic, healing, and helpful in so many ways. It seemed as though I had finally found the voice I had been struggling to find my whole life.
This particular series of self-portraits were created using long expsoure/slow shutter technique. Most of the shutter times range from 1/5-1/15. When I set aside time to create my self-portraits, I almost always experiment with long-exposure for at least a handful of frames. I use the term experiment, because using this technique seems to always surprise me at least a little–and sometimes outright astounds me–with the results. On a whole though, I find self-portraiture in general seems to hold more uncertainty and surprises for me than when I shoot other genres–to be both making the frame and in the frame simultaneously is a practice in patience and in trusting the flow of the process and the results that develop.
I am drawn to long exposure for more than just the unpredictable results. I find it reveals a unique opportunity to study the relationship between subject and space. By slowing down the shutter, the subject has the ability to flow and float through their environment. Conveying motion by blurring the subject can give an unsettling, stirring, even ghostly mood to the photograph. Oftentimes, I am inot even recognizable–there is a loss of identity within the movement. And I wonder as I look at them if I am appearing for disappearing.
We are all Oceans and Streams
It’s only a small world behind the curtain
A Shield for the Void
Let ALL Her Pieces Live
After the Clouds Soaked up Your Tears
Not Staring at the Past
Be the Shelter, Be the Storm
Designed to Dance Outside the Lines
And you Said Yesterday was the Past
The Petals were Poisoned with Leashes
My Visions Hang on My Bones
A Long Time Ago Tonight
Dreams in Reverse
Play Hard, Play Soft
Dancing in my Blue Dreams
Memories are Unsteady Strangers
When She Awakes I Hold my Ghost
In the Deep Ends
Try this Trick
Head of Blue
When You Are Strange
Coming into Being
Wings of the Fire
The Wheel of the World
Maybe a Blue Bubble is Better than No Bubble
Pulling Flames from the Freezing Rain
See Me or Don’t See Me
Everything is Energy
A Fifteenth Second of Fire
Washed up in You
I am human, nothing to do with me. Nothing to do with you. Everything to do with us.
May my arms catch up with my heart
Lost in Lunation
Silencing Creates Emptiness
Leaving The Box.
On my way to me
You were never going to catch me when I fell